I was getting ready on Saturday the next day for the Lolita meet up. I texted Scorpius at 9:30am to make sure he was awake. He didn't answer but I assumed he was getting ready for work and such. I had woken up an hour later so I was trying to finish putting on my make up and getting my outfit and wig on when one of my coworkers (Misia) texted me at 10:10am-ish during her lunch break that whoever I switched with did not show up to work. I was like, "Fuck," and called Scorpius a couple times and texted him a few times. He did not answer. Misia also called and texted him but he also ignored her. Misia had already warned me about trusting Scorpius with my shift several times, so it was kind of my fault...but he could've just told he couldn't make it. Even Misia said that it was his b-day so he probably got drunk on his ass and that's why he didn't answer anyone.
I was in a horrible mood and I didn't get to the meet up yet. I tried to have fun, but my thoughts kept straying back to how much trouble I was going to be in at work. Yeah, Scorpius was supposed to cover for me and yeah, I have the text messages to prove that, but because I'm responsible for that shift, I get all the punishment. I did have fun at the party, but again, I kept think about work and what a freaking idiot and jerk Scorpius was. He's done this to me before.
When I got home from the meet up, my brother and mom told me I got a message on the house phone from my boss. That's when I knew I was really in big trouble...and I had a feeling we had a busy day at work. I listened to the message, and it said I was scheduled for work and to call him back to explain to him why I didn't call or show up for work. I was really terrified but I called him anyway and explained my story. He sounded really angry and I think he was trying hard not to yell at me over the phone. I told him reluctantly that I would be ready to sign a write up when I got back to work.
I got on FB and wrote, "I need a new job. Or my boss needs to hire more reliable people at work. I used to not mind doing favors for my coworkers, and I usually don't ask for much. I only ask for one favor every once in a while, just one, and I still can't even get that. I don't take days off work, but the very rare times I do, I always get in big trouble just because the one person I thought I could trust to cover for m
e decides to not care and ignore all my calls/texts. Even my boss actually left a message for me at my house phone to call him back to explain why no one showed up for my shift today. After today, I will now ignore all texts and calls from my coworkers asking to switch shifts so that today's fuckery will not happen like this again. Seriously, fuck you."
Some of my coworkers responded to that status. Apparently Misia and Polydeuces were stuck by themselves and the parking lot was terrible (a huge clusterfuck of carts were everywhere, basically) and there were lots of customers. It's no wonder my boss was pissed off. I mean, no one called in or showed up for my shift. Another coworker, Sophia, said she had cried yesterday because the hour that Scorpius was supposed to do lot was terrible and another coworker (Mu) didn't tell her about it. Sophia didn't get any help clearing lot and it was really hot that day, obviously. I never felt so terrible even though Sophia told me she knew it wasn't my fault. I mean, it's happened to me before when a coworker would call off work and I would be by myself bagging for 4 checkstands for two hours while taking care of sweeps and the parking lot. On my own. And it's terrible being the only courtesy clerk. Scorpius isn't to be trusted obviously, and Misia said he has tried getting her in trouble before with switching shifts. No matter how many people from work tried to assure me that they know it wasn't my fault and that they agreed it was messed up of Scorpius to do that to us, I still feel guilty. I feel like I didn't deserve to go to that Lolita meet up. Even my mom asked me if it was worth getting in trouble for...
Sunday (yesterday) I clocked in to work at 4:45pm. I think my boss was in a hurry to go home so he didn't talk to me then. Scorpius was there for work and didn't make eye contact with me at all. Sophia told me she gave him a dirty look when he came in and I guess some people gave him dirty looks or didn't talk to him at all as well. The key carrier that Scorpius was supposed to call to confirm (Eirene) told me she went up to him and told him he was messed up for doing that to me because he got me in a lot of trouble. She told me to be prepared to get the write up, and that I should punch his face, lol. A coworker gave me some chocolate and offered to hit him in the face for me, lol. Another coworker gave me a hug and told me she felt sorry for me. A CSR told me she felt bad for me too. I should be glad everyone understood my side of the story, but I'm still in trouble. I was mentally readying myself for a write up the next day (today) when I clocked in the morning.
So I was taking out the trash in the breakroom today and Boss came in (manager). He asked me if Scorpius explained why he didn't call or show up. I said no. Scorpius' excuse was that he got really sick that he had to go to the hospital, he didn't have his phone, and that was why he didn't call. Boss had told him that there was always a payphone. I thought that was a little harsh but that thought went away when Boss told me that instead of a write up, I was going to be getting a formal instead. I was shocked, really...because a formal is much worse than a write up. A formal meant I couldn't get promoted. Boss told me to clean up the liquor room and went up to the office. As soon as I heard the office door close, the tears came out. I was really shocked and upset. I tried very hard to hide the tears when I heard one of my coworkers come into the room, but I think he heard me sniffle 'cause I kind of saw him turn in my direction anyway. He didn't say anything but I made it obvious I didn't want to talk. My hands were shaky and it was hard to breathe. I was in a state of mixed emotions and I couldn't smile. To some coworkers that saw me cry and asked what happened, I told them I was getting a formal. One tried to tell me to go to the union because she thought a formal was too harsh of a punishment, but I told her that Scorpius didn't even call to confirm that he was working for me, so it made me look even worse. It doesn't matter that he was supposed to cover for me; I'm responsible for that shift; no one called in or showed up, therefore I get the punishment. Nothing will get me out of this. Today's shift was only 4.5 hours, but it felt like a whole day dragged by.
I feel like work has just been going downhill this year because I don't think I've been lectured so much by my boss before. Even part of my social life has been getting fucked up and I feel like everything is spinning out of my control. The only thing that I haven't had real trouble with are my classes. I don't know what to do if I start stressing out over studying too. I try to be nice, be honest even if people don't like hearing the truth, and do good things so why the hell is everything not working out for me?! It's all I can do to keep all the dark thoughts out of my head every time something this bad happens to me...
